Handbags, High Heels, & Broken Hearts

A Drive to Coachella with Heart

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 18:15:40 -0700

Today I made the trek to Palm Springs for a weekend of fun at Coachella. Trying to take my mind off of the tragic week our country has endured. On our drive I saw a convoy of military vehicles. There was about a dozen of them. My heart swelled. I immediately wanted to stop them and hug and thank each of the individuals in those vehicles. We live in an amazing country, where men and women volunteer their lives to a service, a service of keeping us safe. This week the bombings in Boston gave us just a taste of what other countries live on a daily basis. Those same men and women who protect us found and captured the man that is responsible for this weeks tragedy. From military to police, from fire fighters to EMT’s, these men and women have more heart than we can imagine. A little drive to the desert gave me perspective to just how lucky we are to live here. We go to bed each night and can feel safe because we know someone always has out back.

In Tragedy There Is Hope

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 14:43:12 -0700

It has been a beyond devastating week for so many. The Boston Bombing, the explosion in Texas, the defeat that the families from Sandy Hook have felt, and so many people I know dealing with health issues or the loss of someone they love. It seems that some weeks, no matter where you turn there seems to be more tragic news. There is something to be said about tragedy and the way it brings people together, the way strangers become heroes, the way a community becomes a family, and the good you find in the wake of it all. The reality check that we are only given one chance at this thing called life and what we do with it grows more important as every day passes. If we can be taught anything from all of this, it should be that who you are and what you give to the world is beyond important. Life is short and many of us take our time here for granted, I know I have. Hug more, laugh more, give more, and never be afraid to say I love you because you never know when that chance will be taken away. I have become so inspired by the stories of all the heroes made of ordinary people and first responders that just stepped up and did what had to be done, without question, without thinking of themselves. Everyday heroes. We all have heroes inside us waiting to shine.

Boston Memories

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 01:02:00 -0700

Boston – a town I love that has a very special place in my heart. A place that I went with family and friends, and even on occasional school field trips.

Copley Square a place where my parents would take me to eat amazing food and sometimes even go shopping.

A city that brought me so many firsts: my first hockey game, my first taste of fashion, throwing out a first pitch at a Red Sox game, meeting old friends traveling through town, and my first television job.

Fenway Park a place that I had dreams about, shot my first commercial for a motorcycle show, eventually had the honor of working at and a place where my name can be found signed inside the scoreboard with baseball hall of famers.

A city I freely walked and took in all the history as often as I could. A city that has passion that you could feel through the pavement, where at any given moment a stranger would stop and talk sports with you.

I remember my first Patriots’ Day spent in good old Beantown. It was 2004 and I had the greatest job ever, I was a co-host on the NESN Pre-game report for the Boston Red Sox. A team that I lived for, a year I would never forget. Patriots’ day is one of the busiest days in Boston. They say the marathon brings in over 20,000 runners now add that to all the spectators, tourists and sports fans. The Boston Red Sox have played a home game on Patriots’ Day every year for as long as I can remember. The city was busy and I was happy to be at work, it was my very first player interview and it was because not only did he have a big game ahead but so did his wife because she was running in the Boston Marathon.

Today I turned on the TV and I was broken hearted at the sights I saw. Explosions at the finish line of the marathon, around 4 hours into the race, which is said to be the busiest time at the finish line. All day I had to fight back tears, the city that I loved so much had been turned into a war zone. I found it hard to talk or think about anything. The constant question of why, state of shock, confusion and sadness weighed so heavy on my heart. I stayed glued to the TV and social media, to keep up to date on the news and check on family and friends. The new images popping up each making my heart hurt a bit worse. The news of lives lost and so many injured. Thinking about the hundreds of people who went out to see a race and their lives are forever changed, the families and friends searching all day for answers. My head has been spinning non-stop I am completely consumed. Throughout all of this tragedy, these violent images, the hurt and the sorrow I also saw something that made my heart fill with joy. I saw heroes. While watching the news coverage I saw heroes running towards the explosions to help the wounded. I saw heroes in first responders who never could have imagined what the day would bring. I saw heroes in people who shared stories. I saw heroes in people that were tweeting and facebooking links to help families find each other and where to donate blood. I saw heroes offering homes and places to stay for runners that had nowhere to go. I even saw heroes on twitter trying to deliver pizzas to anyone who needed food tonight. Heroes came together today to fight back for the greater good and for Boston.

What happened today is horrific; it is a day that we will never forget. Like New York City, Sandy Hook, Columbine, and countless others Boston is Resilient, Passionate, and by standing together, will get through this. Boston has so much fight in it, today we saw that fight. Whoever is responsible will be found and punished, but what matters most right now is the love and passion that Boston showed today, the fight to get through, the good in people to help out, the heroes, and the healing.

Boston is strong, it showed us today just how strong and they will continue to be strong for the lives lost, the countless injured and everyone affected by this horrible tragedy, because if Boston has anything it sure has heart.

Who says looking good has to be expensive? I adore this bright...

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 14:50:05 -0700

Who says looking good has to be expensive? I adore this bright and summery bag from none other than Target! It’s under $50 and screams fun!

The Oscars are coming, and while the world is dissecting the dresses on the red carpet I will be...

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 00:02:03 -0800

The Oscars are coming, and while the world is dissecting the dresses on the red carpet I will be searching for a glimpse of the shoes hiding under them! Happy Oscar Sunday, may the dresses be fabulous and the heels be spectacular !

Do you know what love is? Brian Atwood sure does and thanks to...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 21:41:18 -0800

Do you know what love is? Brian Atwood sure does and thanks to him so do I! This shoe is a stunner who goes by the name Florencia! Not only will you look great walking in a room but when you walk away all your admirers will be in awe of your glitter heels & sole. My soul is full of glitter, purple glitter thanks to Brian!

Summer, sun dresses, and wedges that will take you even closer...

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 22:19:04 -0800

Summer, sun dresses, and wedges that will take you even closer to the sun. Nothing better than a summer shoe that says just how much fun you really are.

Photo credit: Seychelles on Facebook

That thin line between love and hate, was made by a six inch stiletto.

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 22:06:51 -0800

That thin line between love and hate, was made by a six inch stiletto.

"Labels are made to be put on clothes and shoes, not to be put on people"

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 23:14:58 -0800

“Labels are made to be put on clothes and shoes, not to be put on people”

- KK

"Show the world, they have no say in your WORTH"

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 20:50:19 -0800

“Show the world, they have no say in your WORTH”

Do you choose you?

Sun, 25 Nov 2012 23:50:39 -0800

Learning how to give is hard learning how to receive is even harder. We can say to ourselves that we give and give and never get anything back and it’s usually our own fault because we don’t know how to receive. Putting the blame on others is so much easier than working on ourselves. Setting ourselves up to fail is safer than realizing that you are the only one in your way. I am my own worst Enemy I am the only one who gets in the way of my happiness in work, in life, & in love. I can give you a million excuses on why it isn’t working instead of being honest with myself and realizing the reason is me, I am the only person who can create my happiness. It is sometimes easier and safer to be in disfunction than it is to take a long hard look at myself and do the work to find safety in happiness. I spend so much time focusing on relationships I get nothing out of and obsess over why I’m not good enough, instead of loving and nurturing the relationships that are functional, important & real. I can find safety in misery or I can choose me, do the work and give the world the best me I have and in turn find happiness in myself. I choose me

My very own angel

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 00:57:40 -0800

Some people will not understand the words they are about to read, others will understand with every fiber of their being. Six years ago today I took a trip to see some puppies, when I walked in I laid eyes on a chubby little girl, bouncing around, who was bigger than all her brothers and sisters. It was love at first sight. I knew instantly she had to be mine and my heart belonged to her. It was the best decision I have ever made, and yet had no idea what an impact she would have on my life. I had just made the big move to this crazy town called Lala land and had no idea who I was or really wanted to be. Izzy quickly became the only family I had here. I thought I was getting a new puppy who I would teach all kinds of fun things and had no clue how much she would teach me. Izzy relied on me for very few things, food, water & a little love yet I relied on her for so much more. Good day or bad, happy or sad, gone for 5 minutes or 5 days, she greeted me the same, with a great big kiss, smile & that amazing boxer wiggle that made her instantly look like A kidney. She bounced around the house full of love all for me, and anyone else that dared come close was getting lots of kisses too. Izzy taught me so much about life. She taught me how to be accountable, kept me grounded, how to love and be loved unconditionally, but most importantly she taught me how to be a mom. She filled my heart with happiness and was always there for me no matter what. Every belly rub, long walk, run at the park, and new toy was accepted with nothing but pure boxer love. Even up until the very last day, izzy lived to make me happy. The hardest thing I have ever done was to say goodby to my angel. The lessons she taught me about life were the best gift in the world, and sometimes make me think I couldn’t have even come close to giving her what she gave me, but I know that she was the happiest girl in the world. There is nothing quite like the love you receive from a pet. To some of us pets are our children, and izzy and dozer are mine. My heart will always belong to her and she will never be forgotten. I always called her my angel from heaven and now know that I have my very own angel who will always be with me.

Practice what you preach

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 12:40:41 -0800

There comes a horrifying moment in your life when you realize if you don’t apply the things you preach in your own life than you are just as bad as the people you are trying to fight. The moment is scary beyond words, but you have to do it. You have to be the person you say you are and accept the consequences no matter what, it’s the only way it works. Finding people in your life that support all of who you are is hard but having people in your life that only support parts of you is even harder.

Words-choose them wisely

Thu, 11 Oct 2012 21:48:07 -0700

I received a tweet this morning, a YouTube video of a girl that committed suicide because of cyber bullying. Amanda Todd was a teenager from the Vancouver area who made a poor choice on the Internet and it followed her. She moved from school to school, from city to city only to continue to be bullied not only on the Internet but also in school. I came home tonight and watched Amanda’s YouTube video and my heart broke in a million pieces.

Do you remember junior high school? I do and let me tell you it wasn’t any fun. Finding my place, knowing I was different than everyone else, wanting to fit in have great friends and maybe even a boyfriend. I often got into arguments; I was followed home from school and even beat up a few times. This was in a world of no Facebook, twitter or YouTube and it was some of the hardest stuff I ever thought I would go through at the time. I couldn’t imagine life being any worse at that moment.

I think of all the mistakes I made, all the girls I fought with and all the boys I liked that didn’t like me back. I think of the times girls wanted to beat me up because I stupidly believed that the boy they were dating “really liked me” and I think of the days calling my mom scared that someone was coming to my house to kick my ass. I think of all this and my heartbreaks for Amanda Todd and her family.

I watched her video, I felt her pain, and for some reason decided to read the comments people were posting on it. I thought I was going to be sick. People are mean, no matter what age, whether it is a child or an adult people are just cruel. This is a teenager who made a few mistakes in life, as we all do, and yet people were saying she deserved to die. Amanda posted something under her video that struck me, she said:

“I’m struggling to stay in this world, because everything just touches me so deeply. I’m not doing this for attention. I’m doing this to be an inspiration and to show that I can be strong. I did things to myself to make pain go away, because I’d rather hurt myself then someone else. Haters are haters but please don’t hate, although i’m sure I’ll get them. I hope I can show you guys that everyone has a story, and everyone’s future will be bright one day, you just gotta pull through. I’m still here aren’t I ?”

She posted this on Sept 7, 2012

Words, we say a million a day and we type a zillion a month and yet sometimes we don’t stop and think about how the words we use will effect another human being. I ask that you stop and think before you speak and type, because you never know what your words can do to another person’s soul. We all have a story and we all have to pull through.

RIP Amanda Todd

"Whatever you can’t do, I will, because I’m here and that’s how this works."

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 23:02:03 -0700

“Whatever you can’t do, I will, because I’m here and that’s how this works.”

- Grey’s Anatomy

It’s been a while since I laid eyes on a Bag that made my...

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 21:24:29 -0700

It’s been a while since I laid eyes on a Bag that made my heart skip a beat, but when I passed this one I think I stopped breathing. I think it’s the color or maybe it’s the fringe, or maybe it’s the fact that it is so gorgeous and I am crazy! This bag was made for the bad ass Wonder Woman in all of us. The traffic stopping bag is from CC Skye and is $675. I knew the line mostly from their jewelry which I am also obsessed with so it only makes sense their bags would make me stop breathing as well.

Inspiration

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 01:20:52 -0700

You can find it almost everywhere if you look hard enough. We tend to not really see the things we are looking at in life and if we just opened our eyes and hearts then we would be amazed at the outcome. Find a bit of inspiration in everything you do.

You can't appreciate the sweet without the sour

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 22:32:58 -0700

Yes it’s from a movie, Vanilla Sky at that. But how true is that statement. In every aspect in life this is so true. You can’t appreciate the good without the bad, you also can’t expect to get to the good parts without first getting through the hard stuff. In life we are all dealt a hand, faced with decisions that will not always be easy. But you have to appreciate all the things given to you and use them as fire to get to all the great things that are awaiting you. Good or bad we get through it we always get through it.

Making sure I am registered to vote! Are you? No matter what you...

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 18:19:12 -0700

Making sure I am registered to vote! Are you? No matter what you believe or who’s side you are on, it is your duty to vote! We can’t continue to complain and not do our part! November is right around the corner so please register to vote and come Election day do your part and take a stand for your beliefs!

Balance It’s sometimes all you need in life. The way you walk,...

Sun, 02 Sep 2012 23:31:00 -0700

Balance
It’s sometimes all you need in life. The way you walk, talk and live all needs to be balanced out and then it will always work out. Learn to balance your life the best you can and you will be happy